“You don’t stink, you suck!”


It’s been six weeks and I’m still alive so thank the Heavens for me, please….

This process has been nothing short of a rollercoaster. I’ve had my lows where I thought, I’ll never make it in this industry, but I’ve also had my highs where I’ve had the opportunity to travel to shoots, work with the other interns in improving our individual work, and get to know more about the team.

When I was assigned my introductory project to do a 90-120 second video on Mika Maloney, our non-profit consultant for Projects that Matter, I was eager to begin. After meeting Mika, it was a match made in Heaven! Both our hearts lay in philanthropy and our obsessions in shoes; it was clearly a perfect duo. I had three weeks to complete the project and I would finish in a breeze, with time left over, in tip top shape.

It’s week six and my project’s still on the chopping block…

I know what you’re thinking, what an idiot. But excuse you for even doubting me. Here’s how it all went down.

The beginning felt like a race among the other inters (Pat and Andrew) and I. We were given our assignments and sent off, only to come back with something mind blowingly amazing.

It didn’t take long to disappoint.

Round 1:

If you guys could have seen Justin’s face when I showed him my first rough cut of the video. Remember that time when you parked your (parents) car in your slanted driveway just after receiving your license and turning it off, only to realize you forgot to put it in park…the next day…when it’s slammed head first into the garage. (Sorry, Dad) That look. The sheer face of disappointment. But, I expected it, honestly. I remember thinking, okay, he’s going to shit on me. But if you’re prepared, you can at least catch it.

I knew my footage was shaky and my video didn’t exactly match the message Mika was speaking. I knew changes had to be made, but I didn’t know HOW to make them. I wanted help, but I was unsure how to ask. I was scared.

Round 2:

If you guys could have seen Justin’s face when I showed him my first rough cut of the video. Remember that time when you parked your (parents) car in your slanted driveway just after receiving your license and turning it off, only to realize you forgot to put it in park…the next day…when it’s slammed head first into the garage. (Sorry, Dad) That look. The sheer face of disappointment. But, I expected it, honestly. I remember thinking, okay, he’s going to shit on me. But if you’re prepared, you can at least catch it.

I knew my footage was shaky and my video didn’t exactly match the message Mika was speaking. I knew changes had to be made, but I didn’t know HOW to make them. I wanted help, but I was unsure how to ask. I was scared.

Round 3:

We are finally getting somewhere, people. The project has come together quite nicely with a captivating script and footage to match. But now the team and I have decided to bring in a few new shots of Mika in a different environment, away from the chaos of the world. Crista and I will be shooting next week in Mika’s hometown and I’m excited to learn more about where she comes from.
The truth is, I got lucky. I was nervous to show Justin my rough cuts because I didn’t want to recognize that I could do better than this. Which is weird. Usually when you can do better at something, it motivates you to work harder. But sometimes, people are afraid to see all that they are capable off. It rests outside of their comfort zones.

Moral to the story: FEEDBACK IS YOUR FRIEND. Whether it’s “this fucking blows” or “I’d rather listen to my grandma talk shit about her hairdresser than watch your project again”, it helps you eliminate bad choices you’ve made and make room for the good ones. I can’t let it discourage me if it’s in fact helping me.

I’m grateful for the past six weeks and the experience I’ve gained along the way. I am learning so much each day and it feels great. I hope these next few weeks don’t go too fast. I’m not ready to leave these guys. Or Nov and Griff…

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